"Make me a willow cabin at your gate,
And call upon my soul within the house;
Write loyal cantons of contemnèd love
And sing them loud even in the dead of night;
Hallow your name to the reverberate hills
And make the babbling gossip of the air
Cry out 'Olivia!' O, you should not rest
Between the elements of air and earth,
But you should pity me."
so i was reading the entries i wrote during the prelims period, & i realised despite the fact that i was so stressed, i really lived each day to the fullest.
& that's something i can't really say for my life right now.
i haven't really been my true self since the first day of JAE (i sort of have to restrain my crazy tendencies nowadays because i don't want random people to think i'm insane), i haven't laughed heartily (except on hayeeeatoii meetups), i haven't spouted rubbish (that my friends can still understand), i haven't ate in class (omg can you remember how we used to drive mrs yeo crazy! hahaha, i love hello kitty lah), i haven't heard excessively funny quotes ("I have Usher in my brain!", quote mari, "NO SO VIOLENT", quote linna, "jiang si ji, so will i bite people after that?" & "Urm, the white elephants are not romantic at all.", quote lala WHO ELSE, "where are your eggs?", quote mel, "O Levels only what", quote bobo & alot alot more), i haven't gone over to a friend's house to bum around (hello salt & pepper & gen's hammy!), i haven't had a funny phrase/advertisement/tv show phase ("that's hot", "yo i own you dog", "ah duh" = udder, "wah piangxz", "more birds, more luck", HALU HALU HALU HALU "bang! maybe" but i prefer Hotta teehee, Stairway to Heaven), i haven't got a huge spongebob balloon (HAHAHA okay this is completely miscellaneous), i haven't had Camera-Shy days (i'm sure we're camera shy, more like Camwhoring Days), i haven't had an exciting project (
Project Longest Eraser Dust), i haven't had mini scuffles in class (
SHOE FIGHTS!), i haven't lost my keys/wallet/pencil cases/erasers/etc etc, i haven't said prayers before school, i haven't thanked teachers after class the SN way (thank you, goodbye, have a nice day, God bless you, Miss/Mrs/Mr/Mdm ______!), i haven't sang really retarded songs/nor came up with our own retarded songs (mmhmm said the little green frog!), i haven't had an exciting class event (eg winning the national day inter-class singing competition! i always knew 4P could sing hahaha), i haven't had a class party where we ran around the field like crazy dogs while the sun was out and laid on the hockey pitch to talk/look at stars/harrass teachers when the sun went down, i haven't shared tmi with anyone (eg my toes are wrinkled/my butt is numb/my yakult has expired), i haven't listened to Pod-dee with mel (i love sharing music, listening to music alone is so sad), i haven't bus-ed/mrt-ed home with yishuners, i haven't had friends who can truly understand my quirky habits, i haven't had Alliteration Days (Beo Binba & Chua Ching Ching!), I HAVEN'T HUGGED ANYONE PROPERLY IN A LONG TIME.
To stay like this is everything you'll ever need.
so true, but change really is inevitable.
dang, nostalgia at its peak, i hate feeling like that.
but then again, i am very thankful for some of the people i've got to known in NY, without them, things would have been worse.
& i guess you all know who you are. :)
anyway, i am such a irregular blogger.
some weeks i blog almost everyday, & other times i go for days on end without blogging.
i am feeling really lazy (& really tired!!! i have no idea why!) these days, so yup there've been no updates.
& i've been quite busy doing tutorials (O: O: O:), CAN YOU IMAGINE ME DOING TUTORIALS!!! :D
(or, alternatively, can you imagine me NOT going out and staying home to do schoolwork. PRONGS, see, i took your advice).
in two days (sunday & monday), i did vectors tutorial 8B, 3+ pages of econs summary/analysis, EOM, recopied entropy tutorial onto a nice clean sheet of foolscap, 3 questions of reaction kinetics tutorial (HAHAHA sorry lah i really didn't know how to do the rest) & GP essay.
so omg right, i am always not doing my homework and suddenly i've done so much, SHOCKING (hahaha i can so see all my friends' jaws dropping!).
oh & another reason for not blogging's cos i love my previous entry too much, the 4P photo keeps me alive and very happy!
& y'know horrid days in school can always be made far more beautiful with bf's messages and calls to her to whine.
can't wait for bf to move to The Shaughnessy (sp?) then maybe we can go for frequent, long, comfortable walks/talks together (please han mama!).
& so we'll go our separate ways, i'll never be half as brilliant as you.
