okay, now i am going to say something that all my friends will probably laugh at, MY TUTORS TOLD MY MOM I AM QUIET.
wow i am quiet!
i remember the days when hayeeeatoii used to chide me for talking too often and too loudly.
& my mom was so shocked cos throughout my entire schooling life, she's been told by my teachers that i talk too much, so you can imagine my mother's surprise hahaha.
sigh, all i can say is that, the more i move up the education ladder, the less i feel that the people around me truly understand me.
which is a sentiment i can safely say that many of my friends share.
my tutors say i seem to be in another realm during lessons (not their exact words, but that's what they imply). ):
to clarify, i am honestly not daydreaming, i pay attention in class okay just that i'm born with a face like that (aloof) and i cannot be expected to immediately produce an answer when they call upon me right! (because i am not ______)
okay whatever i am so over what people have to say about me, what they think of me (yes i'm lying i am always affected by what people say about me and what they think of me).
ON TO SOMETHING HAPPIER!
today i am very happy (or was, till i got home and heard from my mom what my tutors had to say about me) because i had dinner with Lim Yan Han.
honestly, without her, i'll be truly lost (even though i know there's some other friends whom i can rely on rain or shine).
& i love to talk to han because it's therapeutic and no one understand me better (again this is relative, of course my mom understands me alot too, & people like linna and sammi mark).
xiaohan, i miss you so much (to the moon and back!), i really wish we were in the same school/class/anything/everything so we could talk all the time about all the stupid things we love to talk about (promiscuous! i'm so nice!).
i wruv you han, with you, i can let my hair down, i can say anything crazy, i know you'll catch me right before i hit the ground.
i wish i had 10000 friends who makes me feel as secure as you do. :)
alighted at the bus stop opposite the market and walked a dark and deserted path home and (okay this is going to sound very emo nemo) i realised i love the tranquility of walking home at night.
buddhist belief: nothing is permanent in this world!
i think believing in impermanence do make us feel less burdened.
& to remind myself + others whom i love and want to protect, friends do come and go, if they're going to take us for granted, so be it (wah i am so cryptic if you know what i mean you know if you don't know too bad and i hope you know if you're one of those whom i want to protect).
ONE DAY I'LL FLY AWAY.
