call me ungrateful but this is possibly one of the saddest birthdays i've had. ):
HELLO WHAT AM I DOING ON MY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY?
i am home with no dates, studying, with nothing to do, nowhere to go.
one word to describe how i'm feeling now, sian.
well, it's not like i have nothing to do, i could go finish the math paper i started, or pack my room (which is a disaster area, as anyone who's been to my house recently can testify).
but these aren't things you'll do on your birthday right.
eighteen somemore, like the start of a new phase of my life, but already i'm feeling old and unwanted/unloved.
& i know everyone will tell me that i'm not unloved just that it's A's so everyone has to study, but still it really sucks okay.
so as not to appear completely heartless and disenchanted with life (at the grand old age of 18 nonetheless!), i'm thankful for:
#1 surprises from jls & hayeeeatoii (only 5 of them so sad but i'll blog about it soon but thanks alot alot to han bf, nana, la, mel & ling! & i had to watch final destination 3 which is not my type of movies!!!)
#2 my mom (seriously, how can anyone continuously bear with my tantrums and not throw me out of the house?!)
#3 yesterday evening (i will not say much but if you know you know and please stop being so troubled)
i think that's it, i am going back to the math paper i think, packing the room is crazy, that's why i keep putting off doing it.
p/s: i remember getting swamped by presents when i was young, even on my sister's birthday i'll get presents. now presents are so rare. ): i have only like two or three presents this year. ): ): ): (but thanks hayeeeatoii for the bag love it!)
p/p/s: LET ME MOPE OKAY DON'T LEAVE A NOTE ON MY HALOSCAN SAYING CHEER UP (but you can say i love you tee hee & not leaving a note on my haloscan will make me even sadder)
I TAKE BACK EVERYTHING UNGRATEFUL I SAID JUST NOW I AM SO HAPPY! :)
MY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY ROCKS!
THANK YOU TO ALL WHO MADE IT SO WONDERFUL. <3 <3 <3
& my birthday present to myself is a spanking new facebook account (HAHAHA) so add me everyone (i promise i will not get addicted, not now)!
shall blog more tomorrow or someday soon!
random thoughts
jls, birthday cakes, hayeeeatoii, new clothes, $600 (:D not including birthday angpows yay), FAMILY
