because reality is so unpredictable (take for example my mom's friend's husband's death, he was only 46, completely unexpected), i wish i could do more on a day-to-day basis to validate my existence.
& what if, the moment before i die, i come to regret what i didn't do?
(eg. today it was raining cats and dogs and sammi we should have sheltered the poor boy! hahaha!)
haiyah, when all's over and done with, maybe, it'll be for the best (like now when the other party's happy).
oh & it's incredibly humbling to realise you mean so much less (than you thought) to someone.
