Some say love it is a river, that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor, that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger, an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower,
And you it's only seed
(this song reminds me of my 2D friends like tf, pipi, yanjun, jiantong, etc)
pictures from that day with jls!
(i look super ugly and old and haggard and hunched in other pictures so i'm not posting them even though my friends look good, HAHAHA!)
# plans for rest of this week:
yay friday i'm going to meet sarah and linna (& maybe ling if she's free) which makes me very happy! saturday might be spent going to grandma's (i bet my grandma/grandpa miss me, cos they haven't seen me since a levels commenced but i'm still better than sammi who can count her visits to her grandparents in a year on her fingers, nyah ha ha ha) and class gathering later in the day (i don't want to go bowling or playing pool cos i don't know how to! i realised i don't know how to play alot of things, eg. bowling, pool, SWIMMING, cycling, most sports/games-related stuff. singapore is an island, i might drown if anything happens).
# weather (HA HA HA):
it's been raining since 10 which makes me quite grumpy/sleepy/etc (i took a 3h nap just now, nyah ha ha ha, & in between this guy called me i think from some recruitment agency and i was so sleepy i don't know what i said) because i'm not one for dark, gloomy days (but i don't like sunny days much either, HAHAHA, i like windy days with sufficient but not overwhelming sunlight)
# christmas list:
need to start writing it! although i am very qiong, & i need to get things back from korea for some loved ones too. people who'll confirm, guarantee, chop, stamp get christmas gifts are my family, hayeeeatoii, jls. everyone else i'm sorry but my budget is really miniscule. mel, we must continue belting out our christmas carols like uh last christmas until han runs away!
# feelings about korea trip (should i bring xx to korea!):
omg i'll miss my friends so much (hello today i woke up missing han, OHHHHHHH, must be spent too much time with her these two days lah. I MISS YOU TOO SAMMI). i realised i haven't been spending as much of my time with hayeeeatoii as i thought i would be (eg. i haven't seen lala in forever and she left for bkk today and she met han at the airport HAHAHA hayeeeatoii just too fated lah hor. & i haven't seen ling for a long time too and now she's working, aww). but, on the other hand, i'm really glad to spent time with my family too! actually, i like travelling (minus plane rides, plane rides make me so nervous. i'll gladly choose to have my two feet on the ground anytime tyvm), seeing new things, but being the paranoid person that i am, things like not being able to speak their language and stuff makes me very very worried. eg, i had a dream when i was napping today, i dreamt that i was in korea and the necklaces were 2 for 4 korean won which is like SGD 4/600, HA HA HA, how realistic. & i couldn't communicate with the shop auntie, so i had to gesture, but then suddenly she could converse in basic mandarin! like ?!? (but this could be because i've been thinking of relief teaching chinese, eh stop laughing my chinese is damn good)
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live
OHGAY I AM RAVENOUS NOW, SO I'M GOING TO DRINK SOME MILO, TEE HEE.
edited on 6th Dec/
very important, dearest friends (particularly hayeeeatoii all 10 of you, sammi, prong, bao, sarah, carmen, cbf) please read!
hmm, was reading my old entries from national day 2006 to block test 2007 period.
& i realised that one thing has been constant in my life, even till now.
& that's my friends' love for me (OHHHHHHHHHHH).
no matter how lousy i felt, or how whiney i was (uh still am but let's look beyond that), or how unhappy i felt about my sucky results, they were always there, encouraging, smiling, hugging, kissing (?!) & being their normal, happy selves which makes me realise how much i love them (OHHHHHHHHHHH x2).
i know i've been neglecting my friends pretty much this year (like i don't know anything about ling's life this year!), due to a myraid of reasons, but it's good to know that we've found a tight circle of friends, who'll always be there no matter what.
i vaguely remember promising myself at the end of 2006 to pay more attention to my friends, but i haven't done that, yet they haven't given up or abandoned me.
I LOVE YOU ALL FRIENDS! <3
& it's so true that when you look back on things that've passed, the things you remember most vividly are the happiest, most brilliant moments.
